This week was the week before Festival del Sol, and as usual, it was very stressful. What I am used to at this time of year, and what I found myself doing in the beginning, is frantic listing of all of the things I need to do, but then spending so much time stressing about or not wanting to do the work that the list only grows. Something I found, however, is that certain work, while frustrating, can also be very peaceful or meditative. I really enjoyed working on my stencil and essay because I got into a zone. My mom used to describe this to me and tell me that I would know I had found a passion when I was able to do things in this frame of mind. For example, if a passionate rock climber explains what it feels like to think about and choose every hand and foothold as they climb to move higher and higher, they will not tell you about the experience as an long chain of events, they will explain a feeling. Even though there is a constant change in where they are reaching, there is stress from not knowing if they will make it all the way up before the sun is down, and there is a lot of work ahead of them, the rhythm is what keeps them calm. This is what I felt when making my stencil and when writing. I was in a very focused state where I could work for hours without even thinking about all of the thought that was going into the refinements I was constantly making. Something I have realized about myself is that the hardest thing for me is starting. Once I am in the right headspace, I can do anything.
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